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To all my friends

 Got on a wild hair at work today and went back and read through all my D&D group's journals.  It took a long time and I probably should be finishing The Golden Compass, since I'm supposed to go see it with some people I work with.  Yet another good children's book that will be lobotomized, I'm sure, but I want to see the panserbjorne on the screen.

But I digress.  So I went back and read all the journals and quotes and I missed you all SO MUCH I almost cried.  I missed that time in my life, and all the people I had around me that I didn't appreciate as much as I should and now everyone is all scattered.  I missed having a group of friends that were so close I could just walk over and see them and I missed having a game to work on.  Being DM sometimes drove me crazy because I felt very responsible for it but god I miss it sometimes.

I don't know if it's the winter or what but lately I've been very dissatisfied with my life.  It's safe but it isn't progressing at all.  I looked back over 2007 and realized I had nothing to show for it.  I didn't create anything or do anything worthwhile.  I started this job because I was at a point where I needed something safe and undemanding while I figured out what else to do and now I'm stuck.  I'm scared to quit and move on and I'm not sure what would make me happy.  I'd really like to get at least my Masters degree because I feel like I failed because I don't have it.  I'm worried though that I've been out of school too long to go back, and anyway what would I do with a masters in ancient history that is any different or better than what I'm doing now?

The real point of this post is that I'm thinking of all my friends, even if it's been a while since I saw or talked to them, and missing them today.


( 12 thinking about it — So what's the plan? )
Dec. 18th, 2007 09:49 pm (UTC)
(hugs) I admit I really feel this way from time to time as well. Even though life was complicated my 2nd year at Hollins, playing d&d with you guys really was one of the high point. I had so much fun, and have tried playing D&D with other people but never with the same sort of success. I guess that's what I get from playing with a bunch of clever writery-type girls who actually care about character development. I get spoiled. Actually whenever I check livejournal I get all nostalgic for a moment b/c of my name and remember how fun it was to play with all you guys.

I'm facing the same directional dilemma in life too... my job is uncertain in its permanence and I'm not sure what to do with myself long term.

In short, I feel you!

Merry Christmas/Happy Yule!

(btw, pssssst... if you tell me what server you're on, I could roll an alt on WoW to play with you and Megan... ^_^ like I've said before and not made good on. However, Christmas-time makes me nostalgic and want to spend time with old friends... pst WTB time w/ Molly....)
Dec. 18th, 2007 10:39 pm (UTC)
You too huh? Well it doesn't make me happy that you are unhappy, but at least I'm not the only one, ya know? It's so weird I just feel so cut off from everything, like I've lost track of what I wanted to do.
You would probably like this:
Richard totally reminds me of Vel (though much more psycho).
Yeah every time I've tried to play since college it just hasn't worked out, mostly due to time problems and possibly the nagging suspicion that being 25 with a job makes playing D&D a little silly. Also found out that I can't really join any group without feeling the need to depose the rival DM.

Teaming up for WoW would be awesome! You mostly play Horde, right? My main is a nelf warrior on Farstriders but I wouldn't mind rolling a baby hordie if I had a friend to play with if you know a good server. Farstriders is a crappy place to play horde because the economy is so wonky on that side. It's actually a sort of weird server generally and I've had a hard time getting in to the end game with my 70. My guild does all their runs when I'm not on so my gear sucks which means pugs don't want me (esp. since I'm not a tank), and so on in a vicious circle. We could make our own guild! And it would be awesome!
Dec. 19th, 2007 01:14 am (UTC)

Well I'm not unhappy, I'm just uncertain about life and antsy and stressed...

(WoW yammering ensues)
My main is a 63 blood elf beast hunter (slowly filling points in marksman) on Lightninghoof. We have a small guild consisting of my boyfriend and his brother and their friends who are awesome (and spoil me with their ability to play the game well, which makes bad pugs extra unhappy-times), and then some other dudes who I don't know so well. As far as gear goes I was all upset for a while between like 59 and 62 because all the gear that dropped in instances was for Patrick's shaman or like... pallys. I was so angry. Then I got superpants from Ramparts and have been lucky and now have 3 socketable items at 63!!!! That's crazy to me! I look like Shredder from TMNT. Our server is interesting. It's a bear market at the AH so I'm not making as much money as I used to... but stuff is easier to buy. I also have a level 4 tauren druid I play behind my boyfriend's back because I'm not supposed to have an alt when I don't even have a 70... >.< You can roll on mine, or I can roll on a server you could choose?, since I don't know the difference b/t servers really. I'm cool for whatever!! I also play like... late at night or around noon so if that conflicts with your schedule maybe we can play on weekends. If you want to roll on lightninghoof then my name is Tesana, Patrick is Mallorn. Our guild is (which is fantastic). Let me know if you have other ideas? (huuuuugs)
Dec. 19th, 2007 01:15 am (UTC)
I would also go for a bowlerhatfiasco reunion... I still have the character sheets for Vel lying around somewhere...
Dec. 18th, 2007 09:57 pm (UTC)
I wonder if it's possible
to do a reunion game. Once more, at least.

I've been gearing up to run a game with babybowlerhat again and it's hard to type that and not think of its parent game.
Dec. 18th, 2007 10:46 pm (UTC)
Re: I wonder if it's possible
Reunion games are rough but occassionally awesome. I think some people might be up for it though. Is everybody still friends with everybody else? I can never tell. It always seems like since a lot of us still live pretty close together it should be easy to have a regular game and then it never works. I tried one where all four players worked in the same building and it still didn't work out well. But hell I'd try it.
Dec. 19th, 2007 01:33 pm (UTC)
Re: I wonder if it's possible
Leslie's the only long haul that I know of--she's in Florida. But I'm in town, Argent's in Blacksburg, Vel's somewhere in southern Virginia, Jess is in Charlottesville, Tohma and Seish are in North Carolina, and of course Megan lives with you. We all live within a day's drive or less of Roanoke.

As for party amity, well, we'll see.
Dec. 18th, 2007 10:48 pm (UTC)
Re: I wonder if it's possible
That just made me think, awww I'm babybowler's grandma. But I'm also it's great-grandma.


:is squicked:
Dec. 19th, 2007 12:30 am (UTC)
Do what makes you happy.

In other news, when I met you I didn't know what a D20 was. Now I'm a LARPer. You helped corrupt me :)
Dec. 19th, 2007 06:20 am (UTC)
I miss you too!

BTW you and Megan are invited for New Years Eve. We're having a party! Much fun will be had.
Dec. 19th, 2007 04:56 pm (UTC)
I miss you too. :) *hugs*
Feb. 13th, 2008 05:22 pm (UTC)
Hello. I saw you in an other community and thought you might be interested in this one I just started. I'll delete this right away if you are not interested but I hope to see you apply!

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