Got on a wild hair at work today and went back and read through all my D&D group's journals. It took a long time and I probably should be finishing The Golden Compass, since I'm supposed to go see it with some people I work with. Yet another good children's book that will be lobotomized, I'm sure, but I want to see the panserbjorne on the screen.
But I digress. So I went back and read all the journals and quotes and I missed you all SO MUCH I almost cried. I missed that time in my life, and all the people I had around me that I didn't appreciate as much as I should and now everyone is all scattered. I missed having a group of friends that were so close I could just walk over and see them and I missed having a game to work on. Being DM sometimes drove me crazy because I felt very responsible for it but god I miss it sometimes.
I don't know if it's the winter or what but lately I've been very dissatisfied with my life. It's safe but it isn't progressing at all. I looked back over 2007 and realized I had nothing to show for it. I didn't create anything or do anything worthwhile. I started this job because I was at a point where I needed something safe and undemanding while I figured out what else to do and now I'm stuck. I'm scared to quit and move on and I'm not sure what would make me happy. I'd really like to get at least my Masters degree because I feel like I failed because I don't have it. I'm worried though that I've been out of school too long to go back, and anyway what would I do with a masters in ancient history that is any different or better than what I'm doing now?
The real point of this post is that I'm thinking of all my friends, even if it's been a while since I saw or talked to them, and missing them today.
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